The other day I wrote a blog titled “If tomorrow were my last day.” Unknowingly to me just days later my own grandma went to be with the Lord. Her last day had came and went on. Yesterday was the funeral for this beautiful 81 year old lady. My grandma’s love had no bounds. No bounds to the point of helping raise her husband’s children from his previous marriage and remaining friends with his ex-wife. They even shared a room in the nursing home.
That’s how much her love permeated.
I had the privilege of putting together the slide slow of my grandma’s life for the funeral. I saw a woman who had lived a full rich life and who loved her family. I saw a woman grow from infancy to ripe age of 81 bed ridden in a nursing home. I saw a strong woman who survived almost 20 years after her husband past.
I saw the woman who taught me much of what I know today. It was my grandma that taught me to cook and garden; two of the things I love to do the most. I’ve made cooking a career because of my grandma.
She knew and we all knew her time was coming to a close here on this earth. I didn’t get to see my grandmother as much as I would’ve liked to before she passed. Maybe it’s my way of protecting the memories I have of her before she had to go into the nursing home. Some sort of way of preserving her.
Today my grandma is hand in hand with her husband.
When tomorrow starts without me
And I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled the tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things,
We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me
I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I’d have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I’d always thought,
I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for
So much left yet to do
It seemed almost impossible
That I was leaving you
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile
But then I finally realized
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven’s gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, “This is eternity,
And all I’ve promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.
“I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each days the same day
There’s no longing for the past.
“You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn’t do
“But you have been forgiven
And now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand
And share my life with me.”
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I’m right here, In your heart.